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Filling My Solitary Time
Sunday, June 13th, 2010 | Positivity, Writing | 0 Comments
I have to admit, I was none too happy about the idea of spending the weekend alone. On Friday evening, Justin left for Texas to fetch his nephews who will be spending the next week with us. On top of the fact that I’ve been sick with a sort of cold for the last week, I just didn’t know what I would do with myself. I figured I’d be bored and hermetic. In actuality, my solitary weekend has been a sort of lovely ‘vacation’ of sorts.
I’ve been able to do whatever I felt like without consulting a soul. It’s been rather nice not to have to speak to someone – not to ask “what would you like for dinner?” or “can we watch a boring documentary tonight?” or “can we open a bottle of wine?” I don’t have to ask myself a single thing. Yes, we can do all of those things. I didn’t feel guilty about spending hours at a salon having my hair done. Granted, that’s one of my least favorite past-times, more so when I don’t feel well, but I didn’t feel like I was taking my time away from anyone else. It was mine alone to squander. I read a ton. I watched two movies I doubt Justin would have much interest in. Granted, we called each other perpetually and I sent him lots of photos. I definitely wouldn’t prefer this more isolated lifestyle long-term, but it actually was a fairly pleasant respite. The puppies didn’t seem to mind too much either, as they had practically the entire bed to themselves.
I also had some time this weekend to add a small feature to our website, which I hope to build on. I simply changed my “2010 Goals” page to a “Randomness” page and added sections for readings + quotes. Hopefully this will allow me to share more literary findings with you, my loyal readers. ;) Though there isn’t much there now, it’s sort of meant to send you off on an entertaining, time-squandering internet expedition. I hope you enjoy! Now I am off to the airport to pick up my weary travelers. Adieu!
Thoughts of a Random Variety – Yesterday
Thursday, February 4th, 2010 | Thoughts | 0 Comments
Who knew that brie was the cheese of kings? (Seen at the Lenny’s in Rockefeller center concourse.)
The good thing about where I work is it’s very easy to focus on just work and not get confused about friendships or comfortability.
I hate when people say flushing out when they mean fleshing out.
I find it highly amusing that my coworker is sitting there playing brick breaker during this meeting.
Does it ever really freeze in Montauk? (I was thinking about Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.)
“Iran sends rocket with animal menagerie into space” was a headline on the news monitor in the office elevator. I thought it was pretty interesting word usage. First, I thought of the animals done up like circus animals, then I thought of the Tennesee Williams play, and finally I landed on the glass case in my grandmother’s house that has it’s own animal menagerie inside.
Always at Odds
Sunday, November 15th, 2009 | Thoughts | 0 Comments
Why are my thoughts continually diametrically opposed to one another? I would say that it’s because I am at a unique point in my life, being one year from thirty, and trying to decide what I want to do and who I want to be, but this is the same question I face on-and-off without it being relative to the year or anything else.
At this specific moment, my mind flits between ideas such as staying in New York and working hard where I am, which everyone seems to believe is best for my career. I consider moving back to Texas, specifically Austin. I consider checking out the west coast. I fancifully think about traveling through South America to really learn Spanish, possibly finding a graduate school in Argentina in which to enroll. Maybe it’s because of boredom. I don’t really know. I doubt, at moments like this, that I have the capacity or drive for actual lasting happiness, although I realize it is a common belief that happiness is not lasting – that there are only moments of it. Satisfaction, then. Contentment. I wonder if that’s where I am right now. I suppose it could be. So then, if so, perhaps it is not enough.
A couple of weeks ago I had a meeting with a director of a different department from mine. He travels frequently for work. I commented that it must get tiring. He responded that it didn’t really bother him because he loves his job. I think that must be a really fantastic feeling. Granted there are so many different types of people in the world, but I wonder why I don’t feel that same level of fulfillment and whether I possibly can. I wonder if I should have majored in something else, or should have become a programmer, or what to do, now, knowing that I haven’t been terrible ecstatic with anything I’ve done, minus working those relaxed, low-paid hours in the studio, perhaps.
I wonder why so many other people seem content working for years at a job which doesn’t make them happy and I quickly try to change my position. Once again, it brings me back to feeling that perhaps I am wired wrong for society, but I don’t know. Today, I don’t feel any deep depression. I don’t feel that fear of being terrifically out of place. I just wonder if there is something better out there. I guess that’s the trouble with me. My mother told me many years ago that nothing is ever enough for me. I think about that often – about how right she must’ve been.
Camping Out in Taconic State Park
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009 | Adventure, Friends, Fun, Positivity, Puppies, Travel | 0 Comments
Camping in Taconic State Park
The Sunday of Labor Day weekend, Justin and I loaded up our two pups and headed north with the intent to camp. Naturally, we made no campsite reservations what with it being one of the busiest camping days of the year and all. We hoped to grab a spot at Taconic State Park. Oddly enough, luck was on our side! Not only did we receive the last available dog-friendly spot, our neighbors never showed up! We ended up having a fairly private campsite at the far end of the park near the singular puppy friendly hiking trail. Yay!
Check out our photos and videos >>
View Justin’s video – The Running of the Pups! YouTube | Vimeo
Should you go, this stuff is definitely worth checking out:
The now abandoned Harlem Valley Psychiatric Center which has been purchased with the intent to transform the property into The Knolls of Dover (I found video and photos inside the Harlem Valley Psychiatric Center).- Rosemary’s Texas Tacos – This woman has bright purple hair and zany makeup! The tacos were okay, the sweet tea was delicious, and the interior decor was other worldly. Check out Rosemary’s Myspace for fun images and general insanity.
Bash Bish Falls State Park – super beautiful falls! This park was a perfect stop for us because we were able to take the puppies on a little hike before driving all the way back to NYC. Check out the park’s website or read an article about it if you’re up for it.- Taconic State Park – of course! It was nice and peaceful, and I expect we’ll head back someday! Check out the park’s Wikipedia entry. :)
The Julie/Julia Movie
Sunday, September 6th, 2009 | Thoughts | 0 Comments
So I saw Julie and Julia. I can’t actually say I liked the movie. There were parts I liked. I probably would’ve preferred the movie to just be Meryl Streep’s rendition of Julia Child, but the modern Julie story had some good points to it. When Julia was describing how happy she was to get up at 5:30 in the morning to head to cooking school I practically burst into a crying fit because I wish that’s how I felt about *my* life. Maybe one day.
Anyhow, because I am a curious (or obsessive?) person, I came home to google the movie and see if I could find Julie’s original blog. (I did – feel free to read it here.) After her blogging project was complete, she wrote the book Julie and Julia, on which the film is based. I think they probably made the character in the movie a little more likable and normal. The actual blogger was a snake owning atheist. Not quite the same wholesome character. Although, being that she was born and raised in Austin, you have to give her a little credit. Also, I don’t feel like I can form a fully educated opinion on the woman being that I’ve only read a week’s worth of her blog posts so far. And anyway, I like this line: “I had never in my nearly thirty years of life eaten an egg, but I ate one today. So that’s where I am. In a week of this experiment, I have cooked 14 recipes, but mostly I ate my first egg.”
The length and detail of the blog posts really hearken back to an earlier time in blogging history, before we all had ADD and, certainly, before Facebook and Twitter. Off to bed with me now. Much more to read at a later date. :)
PS: Can you imagine this scene in Park Slope nowadays? I feel like things must’ve been different 7 years ago!
I suppose I should be feeling at peace with the world standing in a long grocery line standing behind a skinhead mother buying organic fruit leather for her adorably dreadlocked son and in front of a couple with matching blue hair buying soy milk and Rao’s marinara sauce, but instead I feel mostly like climbing the walls.
Not Dead Yet
Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009 | Thoughts | 0 Comments
No, we are not dead yet — though you may think it judging by the lengthy absence. Sadly, you’d be wrong to believe this update would bear much substance.
BigP and Roger with Ruby and Eve
I’ve been work a lot at my new job as a web producer which is much more project management than plain web production. I am still figuring things out. Not much more to report there.
My friends from Switzerland, BigP and Roger, visited us for two weeks just recently. It was very nice to have them here. I so hope they come back before too much time passes. Hopefully I’ll get around to making a photo gallery of their visit soon.
Justin recently lost his job at JetBlue – total bummer. It makes being in NY far less positive, I think. The only consolation is the gentle tug of Autumn which has been lingering around the edges of the early morning or late evening hours…
Nothing is concrete.
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