Always at Odds
Sunday, November 15th, 2009
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Why are my thoughts continually diametrically opposed to one another? I would say that it’s because I am at a unique point in my life, being one year from thirty, and trying to decide what I want to do and who I want to be, but this is the same question I face on-and-off without it being relative to the year or anything else.
At this specific moment, my mind flits between ideas such as staying in New York and working hard where I am, which everyone seems to believe is best for my career. I consider moving back to Texas, specifically Austin. I consider checking out the west coast. I fancifully think about traveling through South America to really learn Spanish, possibly finding a graduate school in Argentina in which to enroll. Maybe it’s because of boredom. I don’t really know. I doubt, at moments like this, that I have the capacity or drive for actual lasting happiness, although I realize it is a common belief that happiness is not lasting – that there are only moments of it. Satisfaction, then. Contentment. I wonder if that’s where I am right now. I suppose it could be. So then, if so, perhaps it is not enough.
A couple of weeks ago I had a meeting with a director of a different department from mine. He travels frequently for work. I commented that it must get tiring. He responded that it didn’t really bother him because he loves his job. I think that must be a really fantastic feeling. Granted there are so many different types of people in the world, but I wonder why I don’t feel that same level of fulfillment and whether I possibly can. I wonder if I should have majored in something else, or should have become a programmer, or what to do, now, knowing that I haven’t been terrible ecstatic with anything I’ve done, minus working those relaxed, low-paid hours in the studio, perhaps.
I wonder why so many other people seem content working for years at a job which doesn’t make them happy and I quickly try to change my position. Once again, it brings me back to feeling that perhaps I am wired wrong for society, but I don’t know. Today, I don’t feel any deep depression. I don’t feel that fear of being terrifically out of place. I just wonder if there is something better out there. I guess that’s the trouble with me. My mother told me many years ago that nothing is ever enough for me. I think about that often – about how right she must’ve been.
Short Story: Installment 3
Thursday, November 12th, 2009
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Forest Park in Autumn
Feeling in the mood to read a brief bit of unexcited writing? Alright!!! I have just the thing for you. Check out installment 3 of my tale.
Also, I’ve added photos to flickr of my wanderings with Justin. Take a walk in Forest Park, visit the western Catskills, and check out Salem for Halloween.
Short Story: Installment 2
Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
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Just wanted to let you all know that installment 2 of my little story is up. I haven’t re-read or edited, so forgive my grammatical errors, tense-shifts and typos. Hope you’re all doing well.
Sharing the Start of a Short Story
Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
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Well I guess it qualifies as a story. I began writing this a couple of months ago and never finished it. I have a little more to type up, but it’s late. I am tired.
Wondering what caused me to do this?
The whole purpose of doing this was because… I felt like it. :) It was a good feeling to write something with no purpose and without real concern over whether it would be good or not. It reminded me of high school, when creative writing was fun and something I did for the hell of it.
Take a gander at my little story. I’ll see about typing up the last little bit tomorrow.
I thought it might be cool to open this up to anyone that felt like continuing the story, writing down a parallel path, or hell, even just adding a sentence. But I know no one will feel like doing that, nor have the time, so I’ll relieve you of the pressure.
Why share this thing now, tonight, when I actually worked on it months ago?
A friend of mine mentioned something today that sent me down a path of looking up the portfolio sites of coworkers (past and present). That then led me to perusing some of my own older sites and old communities I used to be a part of… I ended up closing out old accounts in the process, but it reminded me how creative I can be and how I am actually pretty good at design. In short, it made me feel like sharing something somewhat creative. There ya have it… G’nite.
Thinkgeek Pumpkin Design: Meta Pumpkin
Monday, October 12th, 2009
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The idea for this Thinkgeek Pumpkin Design is a “Meta Pumpkin” – just a rad pumpkin carved into another equally rad pumpkin.
Or to put it in the past, we could call it an Xzibit pumpkin. “Yo Dawg, We heard you liked pumpkins so we straight up carved a pumpkin on your pumpkin” – I could just imagine the photo op.
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- A 3D pumpkin I made!
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- A try at Meta Pumpkin template
Fall Photos of Beautiful NY State
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
Posted in Adventure, Fun, Photography, Seasonal by Vanessa | 0 Comments |
Ape for Apples
Just a quick post to link to some photos showcasing the outdoorsy fun we’ve been enjoying during this lovely season: Fall!
An Apple Picking We Will Go
Over the weekend, Justin and I went apple picking, wine tasting, stopped by a dairy for some fresh bread and cheese, and even spotted a baby black bear! It was awesome! I also go to sleep in on Saturday, which was brilliant and much needed.
Setting Up Camp
Rugged Campers With Our Air Mattresses
The weekend before last, we went camping with some friends (Olivia, Alex, and Marisa) in Clarence Fahnestock State Park. We also brought along Ruby and Eve. Olivia was accompanied by her pup Winston. Good times – even if our Hyundai was a little weighed down!
We sat around the campfire until the wee hours of the morning. We hiked. We roasted marshmallows. Good times were had. Marisa and I saved the day by jogging two miles down a windy road, mostly uphill, to locate our car. Yah, we’re tough.
Enjoy the photos!
Five days until mine and Justin’s fifth anniversary!
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